Eligible to Love

Love is materialistic.

People might say not since they're having their beloved in arms.
Having themselves being poisoned by love drugs.
But please never deny that lady falls for gentleman because of their caring and thoughtfulness.
And the way he protected her from almost every single probabilities of getting harmed.
In fact, I don't think that a lady will fall for a gentleman without basic wealth.
Which includes wheels and cash to prepare whatsoever to entertain her, satisfy her.
Or you'll prefer me to say it as "to practice his caring, dependable, or his killing romance".

Every single male in this world can be a lovely prince with wealth.

Fine I know you'll say that yours is true love and both of you can work it through without wealth.
But I bet you'll regret someday.
When he is still that poor with only the capability of loving you left.
Will you still allow him to date you by public transport, walking you home?
Will you really enjoy his poor romance?
Fine. If you answered "definitely yes", enjoy then.

-------------------------------

Perhaps, I need to be materialistic to have my beloved real happiness.

Therefore, I won't love, unless I am eligible to do so.

挽

"Ah boy, 吃唑饭没?"

"Ah boy, 加饭啦."

"有女朋友没哦?" *然后对着我殷殷嘴笑*


我再也没机会告诉她了.

她总是那么的 慈祥. 鬼马.

那一天 婆婆离开了

那慈祥的微笑依然挂在她脸上.

葬礼那一天

我放了一朵白玫瑰在她灵前.



原她安息 我最爱的婆婆

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Hold my hand, let me take you there..

Wished to bring you to a very classic funfair.

















A place,
with antique light decorating,
and never lack of smiles and happiness.



























There will be a classic carousel,
going round with thousands of unique decorated lights;




















and a beautiful Ferris wheel to carry us away from crowds,
off the light,
I want to kiss you there.


Listening to La Valse des Vieux by Yann Tiersen, I dreamt..

国王的新衣

曾经..

习惯每晚等她的“晚安”
很无聊 却很温暖

奢望能每天为她买早餐
很稚气 却很认真

面红耳赤的送她玫瑰
很突然 却很真诚

还曾经..

还鼓起勇气去告白
吓了那位小姐一跳
或许出自她的善良不忍心直接拒绝这白痴 只好考试后再说

最后..

不了了之
心里却默默的期盼

一年又过去了..

直到我认识了另一个对自己真的很好的女孩
相爱过 却因为她觉得自己对我远比不上我对她好
被放弃了

那一天 分手周年纪念日 也就是她的生日
去年 笑着哭
今年 却只有笑
才发觉我好帅 还真的学会了释怀

这年间 还真的越变越帅（指心境）哈哈哈..


现在的我 有个念头
珍惜曾经错过的你


好想好想再跟你说声 晚安 =)

Back

Aww.. I'm back.
Alive. Emo no more.
Finals. Falling.
Loads of assignments. reports. and case studies.
Im'ma kill you all.
Two more lengthy years ahead.
I'll make it.

Wait for me. \m/

Met..

Finally.

She passed by. waving to me.
taking my consciousness away all along.

I'm sure I've finally met her.

only after her disappearance from my empty sight.


awesome.

I'm immunized.

After Birthday

Past 1st of March

Happy birthday to me, myself and Mr. Chopin.




Very much appreciation to every single wishing of y'all

thanks to all of my friends' loves and caring

y'all are the best gifts to me.

Always,

and once again..

I greatly appreciate the warmth.

Thank you.

----------------------------------------------


There's always greater wisdom in a pessimist.


You have to believe that,

and that's what I'd believe in myself.

灰

花

被淡淡忧伤

压低了头



天空

哭了好久



待彩虹

为它们从新上色

Accupuncture..

needles. and. needles.

old injury.

Basketball.

B-boy.

Cry me a river. by Julie London

Cry me a river, the first song of my blog's music player.
Classically beautiful and touching.
Feel it.


~

Now you say you're lonely
You cry the whole night through
Well, you can cry me a river, cry me a river
I cried a river over you

Now you say you're sorry
For bein' so untrue
Well, you can cry me a river, cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me, nearly drove me out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember, I remember all that you said
Told me love was too plebeian
Told me you were through with me and
Now you say you love me
Well, just to prove you do
Come on and cry me a river, cry me a river
I cried a river over you

I cried a river over you
I cried a river over you
I cried a river over you

~

叹

听那首歌

悄悄的 被想起

关于你 留下的温暖

努力 坚持 不放弃

遗忘 放手 离开

当困难不再是困难

我 竟无福消受。

Girls

Doing my biotech degree course currently..


One girl,

can be attractive.


Two girls,

threatening?


Over hundred?

sickening~

拗材记

材被拗..

太帅了，材总是被拗.

Happy

How grateful.


People suffering from afflictions and disappointments.


Do remember to smile,

and smile to your dead.

If you wish to just end up your life as a sad jerk.

How grateful.

p/s: So, live happily, dear.

念

今天

我想用文字回忆

你在我手上留下的那香香的味道

I'm happy, before.

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.

我..

不要你难过

我只要一个温暖的微笑.

My Own Drug

Balled my hardest hard today,

exhausted.



Now then I'm truly exhausted,

without exception,

neither my body, nor my heart.



I ain't hope for anyth this moment,

except for a good sleep.



Maybe,

it's one of the reasons

making basketball like drug for me.

Just a clown

A sad clown

you won't ever know how's he thinkin.


As you known.

He'd smile.

He'd let go.


But don't cry, my baby

after seeing his wholeheart, someday..

Fuck you

Fuck you.

Fuck your Smile.
Fuck your perfect existence.

Fuck you for not caring.
Fuck you for you’re lost.
Fuck you for leaving.

Fuck you for making my day
so beautiful when you're around.

Fuck you for taken me up,
showed me the heaven, and dropped me to hell.

Fuck you for every absence of a smile,
and every presence of a tear.

And most of all,
fuck you for turning everything grey
within a second, inside me.

Fuck you.

I love you..

Grim Goodbye

Oh my eyes
oh closing slowly

Don't you try to take me down,
don't you try to take me over,
won't you try to break me?

The complexities moving in,
and I feel that I do not have the strength,
tragedies plaguing me solemnly
It's affecting my will

But wait, now that I've found you,
situations from dark now change to gray
Disregarding my absence of memories,
it's perpetually blinding me of sanity,
and just when I'm giving in,
as I try to scale these walls
Jericho falls around me
and I feel that I've strayed too long

And darkness is fading in, and darkness is real

Oh my eyes
oh closing slowly
I try

Fate seems to recreate,
I just cannot escape,
Something holds me down and makes me
act a way I can't explain
Even now I can feel it coming over me choking me,
as I'm falling behind
You can say you know me,
but you have no clue what my dreams could show you

And darkness is fading in, and darkness is real

Oh my eyes
oh closing slowly
I try

I
Can't
Can't win
...Tell me what you see.

I feel something deep inside me,
I feel deep inside...me!
I feel something deep inside me
and I can't let this go,
I feel something deep inside me
and I can't let this go, whoa,

Lie, as I try to steer clear, and I try to stay sober
This is taking me over,
And my dreams complicate it...

I just cannot let this go
I tried so many times to tell you
I just I cannot let this go,
I just cannot win

I see you
I see you...you falling away
I see you...you
You... killing me softly
I see you...you falling away
I see you...you...you

Don't take what's in front of me,
open eyes can see I have everything
Tell you, don't take what's in front of me,
tell you, don't take what's in me

Lie, which one lied?
When I feel this come away,
that's why I try...lie

I see you coming my way
dreams may fall more everyday
But I see you looking my way

And I've tried just to separate dreams from reality
Try to satisfy this wanting,
Try to stay righteous, try to stay sober,
but then, I can't win

And I know you, and I know you, and I know you...

Lie!

Shhh..

The angel landed and took me with her.

Showed me the heaven, just to drop me to hell..


I love her.

Kite

I'll feel really bad..

if it falls,
touches the ground.

if it's freed,
flyin far away I loosing it.

A kite,
always happy to be in sky.

And I,
would rather fly a kite,
than holding it tight.

篮球

我酷爱篮球

尽情地发挥创意制造机会

利用虚假黯然的眼神挑拨对手

运动剧烈而贪婪地喘吸场内空气的当儿

忘了时间

忘了失落

空洞的眼神
骗得了哥儿们 也骗了自己

泪
也能被汗水悄悄带走


说过篮球超棒的



我

酷爱篮球

Addicted

Recently,

addicted to something,

which it touched me,

like the tender touch of your hand.



your voice's sweet



I'd smiled,

and smiled till the end of my dream,

each time you sing for me.

That's enough.

呼吸

一早起来

感觉空气一块块的

很幸苦吸进去

也很难呼出来


天空凝结了吗

还好

不是我的心。

---------------------------------------------------

我们都开心？


好, 给我时间。

Old friends, Basketball, Pasar Malam..

It was a good day.

He Sheng
Ji Sheng
Desmond
Former Chong Hwa Independent High School's grass
Kit Lou
Ah Lun my 12-year-friend

came to play basketball together with me at my college.

Ke Ke played until whole body cramped
lying on the floor.

My 12-year-friend is the "tallest" among ballers. ( <175cm, you know.. )
They felt pressure playin with our Nigerian homies there
greater height and very different body fitness perhaps
faster, powerful and good jumpers.

Went to the so-called famous "Pasar Malam Conaught" after that
It's just nearby UCSI every Wednesday.

Even my very useful middle finger
which is used to apply parallel force for perfect parabola while shooting three points
which used to show the International symbol

cramped seriously while I was writing in my tuition class..

ouch.

What a good day.

x x x

yea.

So po..
I've been asked bout our relationship by those caring friends

I remained silent.

a smile is given
like each time when I think of you.

A crazy boy

a crazy boy want me to take picture for him.

then he doing these stupid emotions.. ==

arghhhhhhh...

=="


then asked me to take picture together with'e

but he pulled a crazy face



a crazy kid.

my very good Friday

Attended a cultural night
by Soka Gakkai Malaysia
they celebrated the 20th year of the placement of their cultural center in Malaysia
found peoples there so friendly, passionate and polite.

Realized that there's a same culture and belief united them.
I believe that most of people take SGM as a religious body without knowing them.

but I take it as a great philosophical body
teaching their members with logical and positive thinking
they emphasize good personalities and thinking

It's just a very nice culture.



The performances were so nice.

Thou I'm quite far away
but your smile distracts me from watching the whole performance.


thanks for sharing the most precious thing in your life with me,

thank you so much

Till the day I really give up..

I would wait if you asked me to,
With a smile I would take your every command,
and I would take all your worries away with my hands.

I hope that a smile never leaves your face,
Still I hope that you are always happy,
Even if it means you're without me.

Deep inside I haven’t forget you,
I will still go crazy when ever looking into your eyes,
and I will always long for you to be by my side.

You won't ever see the tears in my eyes,
cause I turned it into those stars in the sky.

You won't know.
how deep was the misery of mine'
for being your "dear dear" no more.




HUG.

surgery

life...

dad had a surgery

gall bladder problem

it took him 3 days 2 nights at hospital

mum always be his companion

me?

had to face 3 devils

they were playing computer like hell



I got 3 peaceful days..



I only wish that everyone knows to take good care of themselves



Just..

afraid to lose anyone.

A cool friend

I've met someone

so cool but warm inside

look fierce

emo

likes coffee with hazelnut

always quite

humorless

kind and caring

always blurred

loves dreaming

loves looking at the sky...

just like I am.



maybe that's the reason

we got close so easily.



smile ya..

like we always told each others to.

my dear

The sun doesn't always shines on me.

You're the only one that has reached me,
the only one to make me smile,
your absence has me in denial.

Once you held my hand,
it stopped trembling like never end.

You gave me hug,
which it's so warm to chase away the dark.

A kiss on your forehead,
a blessing of mine for you to walk ahead.

I have nothing here,
only memories of your smile,
and visions of your face every once and a while.

If in time you think of me,
and if you were to look back after many years,

Dear,
you would still see me standing here.

Last holiday

Eng Yap, Bobo, Siew
Jill, Sun, Fang

Jill, Sun, Fang

taken during last holiday

miss them a lot.

happy?!

why feelin so heavy deep inside

tomorrow will be a good day

happy?!

Monday

once

you want humorousness

that brings your

laughter

happiness

which I can't afford so much

yea..

I'm cool

that's me



If

I say if

laughter is all only you need,

for your future life



you'd better choose a clown.



but..

I hope to give you all my best

and

I'll try ma best

to make you happy



the ending?



told you

just don't give a f...

we never owed each other



at least

we'll never regret.





just gim'me your hand.

Sunday

sighed..

still I haven't finish these books

one with very few pictures

another with thickness as much as 1k+ pages

I should finished it

hate my laziness

sighed.

mothers' day's tomorrow

just do somethin for ya mummy, punk.

from today..

I love my mum so much

for sure.

If

pls..

just don't let go

if you love me

我

静静的等待

迷失的你



没关系

我真的好好的

其实我也都明白

我一直都认为值得的

才把它收起来



至少

不管怎样的失落

最后都会因你的微笑

而沉淀



有啦

我真的有努力地开心

答应过你的



你也一样



想回来

就回来吧



我还是静静的..




你要开心哦



对了

虽然这次你的舞不多

但你真得很棒

一定有机会表现自己的



今天哦

竟被人赞我眼睛水汪汪..



原来

我真的很想你

sunshine

She's beautiful.

Never give up..

warming me

comforting me



my sunshine.

when..

I will be alrite.

for you,

and myself

for sure.

彩 虹。

雨过天晴

答应了你

我要比现在更开心

你还是我愿意分享一切的朋友

那份温暖

我会一直留在心底

谢谢你到最后都为我好




这一点点

就够我看到彩虹

I don care..

je m'en fous..


je t'aime..

木头

想留

却也留不住


我是木头。。

他很幽默。。

你不舍得他带给你的微笑

曾经的努力、期待

那么的不堪一击?


你常说自己对我不好


不

你真得很好

可能是我没那份幸运


如果你要放弃

我不会挽留


你的同情

就省下来吧


谢了

thanks

thanks

for your honesty

you doubted whether still i'm the one you love



maybe..



I just didn't worth for your wholeheart.

holiday

final exam done

first sem ended

havin such a three weeks holiday


think back..


've walked pass a long long way

lot of things to reminisce..



need so much improvement

to have better days..


dear,

Just wait for me.

white shirt

you like me in white shirt..

I know

he likes you

obviously.

you know either


each time you received his good


I was depressed.


I hate this misery

I know I shouldn't



I know you just take him as a friend

I know it won't change your heart

I know you won't give up..


It's my fault

I just..

唯美

人

脆弱得可怕

几时失去温度

不知道

几时失去知觉

不知道

几时成为回忆

又几时

不再能为自己和身边重要的人而努力

不愿待失去了才觉得唯美

只想留住你的笑

彼此对将来的期待

来

手给我